I Really Need to Talk to You

It's been years that I'm depressed for some reasons, but not always.

But when the time I am, I really want to talk to someone.. 

Who can keep secret, who can understand me, who can listen up to me,
who can make me feel the assurance..

I tried to pray, and just hoping just in my dreams I can talk to Him.. 

I tried talking to my husband and let my feelings out, but it seems when I try to share
and/or let him know about me, some of my ideas, my feelings,
he seems doesn't understand me wholly.

I cried this night because I felt hopeless of talking to God.
Just in my dreams, I wish.. 
but why..

I need a friend who is always there for me, but no one of em can't.

All I am thinking now is Him. Always been.

I desperately want to talk to Him, just for a minute.